《The Rainbow-虹(英文版)》

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The Rainbow-虹(英文版)- 第74节


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and rolled her eyes; as if something were reaching forward to
bite at her throat。 She pressed back her head; her mind was
driven back to sleep。 Since she had married and bee a mother;
the girl she had been was forgotten。 Now; the shock threatened
to break in upon her and sweep away all her intervening life;
make her as a girl of eighteen again; loving her father。 So she
pressed back; away from the shock; she clung to her present
life。

It was when they brought him to her house dead and in his wet
clothes; his wet; sodden clothes; fully dressed as he came from
market; yet all sodden and inert; that the shock really broke
into her; and she was terrified。 A big; soaked; inert heap; he
was; who had been to her the image of power and strong life。

Almost in horror; she began to take the wet things from him;
to pull off him the incongruous market…clothes of a well…to…do
farmer。 The children were sent away to the Vicarage; the dead
body lay on the parlour floor; Anna quickly began to undress
him; laid his fob and seals in a wet heap on the table。 Her
husband and the woman helped her。 They cleared and washed the
body; and laid it on the bed。

There; it looked still and grand。 He was perfectly calm in
death; and; now he was laid in line; inviolable; unapproachable。
To Anna; he was the majesty of the inaccessible male; the
majesty of death。 It made her still and awe…stricken; almost
glad。

Lydia Brangwen; the mother; also came and saw the impressive;
inviolable body of the dead man。 She went pale; seeing death。 He
was beyond change or knowledge; absolute; laid in line with the
infinite。 What had she to do with him? He was a majestic
Abstraction; made visible now for a moment; inviolate; absolute。
And who could lay claim to him; who could speak of him; of the
him who was revealed in the stripped moment of transit from life
into death? Neither the living nor the dead could claim him; he
was both the one and the other; inviolable; inaccessibly
himself。

〃I shared life with you; I belong in my own way to eternity;〃
said Lydia Brangwen; her heart cold; knowing her own
singleness。

〃I did not know you in life。 You are beyond me; supreme now
in death;〃 said Anna Brangwen; awe…stricken; almost glad。

It was the sons who could not bear it。 Fred Brangwen went
about with a set; blanched face and shut hands; his heart full
of hatred and rage for what had been done to his father;
bleeding also with desire to have his father again; to see him;
to hear him again。 He could not bear it。

Tom Brangwen only arrived on the day of the funeral。 He was
quiet and controlled as ever。 He kissed his mother; who was
still dark…faced; inscrutable; he shook hands with his brother
without looking at him; he saw the great coffin with its black
handles。 He even read the name…plate; 〃Tom Brangwen; of the
Marsh Farm。 Born 。 Died 。〃

The good…looking; still face of the young man crinkled up for
a moment in a terrible grimace; then resumed its stillness。 The
coffin was carried round to the church; the funeral bell tanged
at intervals; the mourners carried their wreaths of white
flowers。 The mother; the Polish woman; went with dark; abstract
face; on her son's arm。 He was good…looking as ever; his face
perfectly motionless and somehow pleasant。 Fred walked with
Anna; she strange and winsome; he with a face like wood; stiff;
unyielding。

Only afterwards Ursula; flitting between the currant bushes
down the garden; saw her Uncle Tom standing in his black
clothes; erect and fashionable; but his fists lifted; and his
face distorted; his lips curled back from his teeth in a
horrible grin; like an animal which grimaces with torment;
whilst his body panted quick; like a panting dog's。 He was
facing the open distance; panting; and holding still; then
panting rapidly again; but his face never changing from its
almost bestial look of torture; the teeth all showing; the nose
wrinkled up; the eyes; unseeing; fixed。

Terrified; Ursula slipped away。 And when her Uncle Tom was in
the house again; grave and very quiet; so that he seemed almost
to affect gravity; to pretend grief; she watched his still;
handsome face; imagining it again in its distortion。 But she saw
the nose was rather thick; rather Russian; under its transparent
skin; she remembered the teeth under the carefully cut moustache
were small and sharp and spaced。 She could see him; in all his
elegant demeanour; bestial; almost corrupt。 And she was
frightened。 She never forgot to look for the bestial;
frightening side of him; after this。

He said 〃Good…bye〃 to his mother and went away at once。
Ursula almost shrank from his kiss; now。 She wanted it;
nevertheless; and the little revulsion as well。

At the funeral; and after the funeral; Will Brangwen was
madly in love with his wife。 The death had shaken him。 But death
and all seemed to gather in him into a mad; over…whelming
passion for his wife。 She seemed so strange and winsome。 He was
almost beside himself with desire for her。

And she took him; she seemed ready for him; she wanted
him。

The grandmother stayed a while at the Yew Cottage; till the
Marsh was restored。 Then she returned to her own rooms; quiet;
and it seemed; wanting nothing。 Fred threw himself into the work
of restoring the farm。 That his father was killed there; seemed
to make it only the more intimate and the more inevitably his
own place。

There was a saying that the Brangwens always died a violent
death。 To them all; except perhaps Tom; it seemed almost
natural。 Yet Fred went about obstinate; his heart fixed。 He
could never forgive the Unknown this murder of his father。

After the death of the father; the Marsh rs。
Brangwen was unsettled。 She could not sit all the evening
peacefully; as she could before; and during the day she was
always rising to her feet and hesitating; as if she must go
somewhere; and were not quite sure whither。

She was seen loitering about the garden; in her little
woollen jacket。 She was often driven out in the gig; sitting
beside her son and watching the countryside or the streets of
the town; with a childish; candid; uncanny face; as if it all
were strange to her。

The children; Ursula and Gudrun and Theresa went by the
garden gate on their way to school。 The grandmother would have
them call in each time they passed; she would have them e to
the Marsh for dinner。 She wanted children about her。

Of her sons; she was almost afraid。 She could see the sombre
passion and desire and dissatisfaction in them; and she wanted
not to see it any more。 Even Fred; with his blue eyes and his
heavy jaw; troubled her。 There was no peace。 He wanted
something; he wanted love; passion; and he could not find them。
But why must he trouble her? Why must he e to her with his
seething and suffering and dissatisfactions? She was too
old。

Tom was more restrained; reserved。 He kept his body very
still。 But he troubled her even more。 She could not but see the
black depths of disintegration in his eyes; the sudden glance
upon her; as if she could save him; as if he would reveal
himself。

And how could age save youth? Youth must go to youth。 Always
the storm! Could she 
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